The news started breaking as I was heading to bed after 0200.
“Mass Shooting in Orlando – 20 Dead, 20 Injured”
All I could think was, “Shit…here we go again.”
By the time I woke up this morning it was 50 confirmed dead.
Fifty souls lost at a night club in Orlando, Florida.
Gun crowd says there should be more guns in the hands of citizens to fend off such attacks.
Gun control crowd says the laws need to be tighter.
Some say it’s (radical) Islam which is to blame.
Some blame the President for making our country more friendly to terror – er…Muslims.
Some say it’s God’s judgement.
Some say it’s just a super fucked up thing to happen.
As mass shootings increase in frequency; as hatred continues to grow in strength and manifest in vile groups such as ISIS, the KKK, human traffickers, and politicians; as acts of terror become the new normal…I gotta confess, I’m not entirely surprised.
Always saddened and disappointed with humanity, but not shocked and certainly not surprised. Before things get better, they’re going to get worse.
There are moments of reflection where I sit back and wonder why on earth I colluded with another human to bring a new human into the world. There are moments where I reconsider and doubt the wisdom of my career choice in pursuing content creation (filmmaking, writing, etc); shouldn’t I be doing something important with my time instead of dreaming up frivolous stories for entertainment? The Titanic is sinking and I’m auditioning for the band?
Entertaining is all I’ve ever really felt good about being good at.
When you can laugh, think of a joke, sing a song, or just be creative in even the darkest of circumstances fear is castrated, terror is mortified, brokenness is restored.
And when you can get other suckers to laugh, think, sing, create with you, then the doom of doom is even more pronounced.
Besides, the boat is sinking; ain’t nothing changing that fact.
Now, the more we laugh and sing and dance gaily about our merry lives, the more darkness there is that conspires against us, seeking to snuff out the delight of life bringing only ruin and misery to nature’s existence.
But did you know that scientists seem to be discovering that even in dark energy there is light?
Reminds me of ol’ Psalmist man saying to G-d:
12even the darkness is not dark to you
the night is as bright as the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Even in the darkest, coldest, most remote parts of the universe (apparently), there is still light.
So, light is everywhere; not darkness. Or wherever darkness is, light is right there with it, keeping the scary places not so scary.
The boat is sinking. You want to go down lamenting and wailing without dignity or shall we sing and laugh, reflecting on the time we had, marveling that we lasted as long as we did?
So, uh, yeah: fuck evil; fuck terrorism; fuck fear.